Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Butterflies are free

Hello to my inaugural blog. I have been reading some another blog of late and felt like perhaps there was somethign or somethings for me to say here. First let me say that this is an excercise in stepping outside myself. While I love words, I have long had a mistrust for those i did not deliver personally. These will not be proffered in that way at all. I don't know if anyone will ever view them or if they will find an audience in which they will spark more thought. If they touch you then let me know. If they dont touch you then stick wtih me, my reach may improve.

"If you love somethig let it go. If it returns to you then it was always yours. If it doesn't return, it was never yours."

I was recently asked to step outsie myself and extend the trust that i so often ask of others. To relenquish the control by which I so often seek to make the world conform to my view. It sounded simple to them. it sounded like my world was coming apart to me. But I knew I had to trust. What an invaluable lesson I was offered into myself and how I should see others.

I let go of the control, stepped back adn took a deep breath. A lesson I also learned from this good friend. In short I set my friend free of the controlling way I saw them. No caoching no how to let go. No pressure that if i didnt' let go things would never work out. Simply release, wait and watch.

Today that release was rewarded in a new found freedom when the friend showed me how valuable I am to them. What would I have given to have what I have tonight? Far mroe than I was ever asked to give. And yet in my foolish, self centered view of life I was hesitant to give even that simple freedom.

My friend knows me well, perhaps beter than I do even myself. But I learn at their hands, loving and caring as they are. They are a safe place to put my needs, worries, insecurities adn hopes.

I so needed this lesson. All too often am I the one asking others to bear with me. Now i know I am more often than not the one who needs to bear with myself. To open my ears and my eyes and listen to them.

What did I find at the end of the freedom I thought I offered my friend adn they offered me? I found the freedom to be a true friend, a valued friend and a better more insightful person. Thanks Friend.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You're very welcome. I hope I live up to these big words.